Confused

kiki,
I noe u're already asleep. But i feel really confuse. Am i jealous? Or am i frustrated? I have no idea.. Maybe i am envy others that i can't do it. The truth is I can't do it. Could it be fate? Or could it be a chance for me to reflect? It's my dream that others are fulfilling for me now. It's shocking and its a pity. It sad but its not just me. That's still one last chance for me to do it. May i be able to get the chance? I can't predict the future. But atleast there's still one. That's time for me now to change what i want. Praying if i uses this only chance left, it will gain my wish. HAPPY NEWS

TireD

kiki,
I know its veri late now, i just finished studying FA.. thanks a lot to huili. She helps me to clear all my doubts.. but still have some haha.. Nd to gambatte tml! yesterday ran poly 40. I tot girls only need to run 1/4 of what guys will ran..BUT NOO...i ran 2.4km ytd..really out of breath . that means poly 50 i need to run 3km?! OMANA..tot clare ran for 2km is really alot..aiyo, cause my groups some guys can't run too much, so i have run for them! LOL.
There will be a total of 93 groups on that day. So a total of 930 people running together?! Gosh! haha..

YWD 57th birthday

yo kiki,
kyo, i went to Temp SSA for this event. i was there early and they want me to follow them to learn some dance steps. Song title '14 minutes' or something, remember Benjit sang it at Kbox. Anywayz, i tot it was a dance steps prepared for NDP event. 0.0 I learn it for around 2 hours and we were to perform on stage! LOL. Guess wat?! its in front of 1600 audience! i was standing at the front of the stage! OMG.. i keep forgetting my dance steps and keep looking at my fren behind..lol.. Its such an exciting experience. =) The whole event was really interesting. It brings back memories when the band played American graffiti IV. LOVE that song!

OKie, back to project, crm, ma, ecm, epi, rwps, still got wat? nope? okie..

dun wish to read this

kiki yo,
i have nothing interesting to share to you ne. i am feeling lousy. No mood. Think i am having exam kan ju. Its becoming totally blank, and black out. かなしいです。Getting lesser and lesser じしん.

what i get is 'witH thE freakinG fantastic scores.' But its is really not easy for me to get THIS type of result le! [trying to comfort myself]. T_T
i Believe that i didn't slack a single bit, i know i didn't studied last minute, didn't get lazy. I done all my best and strongly believed i could get what i should get but maybe my believe is too strong and maybe i am too scared.. I have no other ways to go, no other directions to head to. I just have to be more calm while walking this path and start to doubt on my standard. I know it'll be hard after facing this hard wall, but I'll still have to continue and be resilient with no hesitation. @_@